Passion

Passion is defined as

a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object, or concept

but what happens when what you have desired for so long is finally in your hands? Will we treasure it? Or will the novelty of our newest acquisition wear off sooner than we had expected?
It is human nature that we begin to desire the things we cannot have, but it is easier for us to enjoy the chase rather than the object we've been blindly chasing after for so long.
I came to college desiring to find something that I'm passionate about. I thought I was passionate about medicine, but I've begun to realize through my Program II essay that I'm not passionate about medicine; I'm passionate about what I can do with it. I am truly passionate about helping kids and about using what I have been blessed with to help others who were not blessed with similar material goods or opportunities.
Writing my Program II essay, I wanted to put down in words why I am passionate about medicine, but then I began thinking, what happens when I become a doctor? What will I be working towards then?

Ennui

A little sad that DukeEngage is already over! Well, it's been over for two weeks now, but I wish I was still there working with the kids and just having something substantial dictating my life. Even though I'm free of all obligations at home, I feel more constrained than ever. I don't have to be a role model for kids; I don't have to go to mandatory DukeEngage reflection sessions; I don't even need to think about what I'm doing for dinner! At the same time, these freedoms and obligations actually define the independence that I desire and crave now. I realized that I'm so lazy now that I'm home, and I think it's because I don't do anything. I have nothing to look forward to other than seeing my best friend everyday and sometimes other friends as well.

I'm so ready to go back to school and the normal hustle and bustle of college life. I'm sure I'll eat my words as soon as the semester starts back up and I'll have to learn to efficiently manage my time. For now, however, I'm ready to be busy again.