A little sad that DukeEngage is already over! Well, it's been over for two weeks now, but I wish I was still there working with the kids and just having something substantial dictating my life. Even though I'm free of all obligations at home, I feel more constrained than ever. I don't have to be a role model for kids; I don't have to go to mandatory DukeEngage reflection sessions; I don't even need to think about what I'm doing for dinner! At the same time, these freedoms and obligations actually define the independence that I desire and crave now. I realized that I'm so lazy now that I'm home, and I think it's because I don't do anything. I have nothing to look forward to other than seeing my best friend everyday and sometimes other friends as well.
I'm so ready to go back to school and the normal hustle and bustle of college life. I'm sure I'll eat my words as soon as the semester starts back up and I'll have to learn to efficiently manage my time. For now, however, I'm ready to be busy again.
